Hi Siimon,

Well who knows really. You could be seeing into a concurrent life time experience and so your boundaries are a bit fuzzy because in one sense it is very real and is happening now and at the same time you have this life you are living with Angie which is also very real.

I think focusing on where you are now what you do in this life effects all the concurrent lives you are consciously creating. So opening your heart and clearing your fears in this life will enhance all of your relationships.
 
I think that what we are ultimately craving  is that connection to god and others that is pure and unconditional love and we get caught up looking for it in others when where it comes from is within ourselves.

Maybe having it with someone else in another life is to  help you to have it for yourself and for Angie and that is what is coming through.

Don't really know , but it was just a thought 

Thank you Gina I hope it does work and that you get a stable homelife for all your sakes, however I am not sure about the "when perfect comes, the imperfect will fall away" saying as Michael says we want to get our thinking right before full on connection, ie. make sure the fears have been walked through. I am in fact wondering if I should pause the GI myself because I still have unwalkthrough'd fears and some things appear to be incorrect in my thinking.
Love and Light
Si

Well that is the point of the GI, to consciously bring up those fears for clearing. I suppose if you paused doing the GI things may go back to "normal" but those fears will still be there the next time you start the GI again then they will re-surface. I think clearing the fears is quite a bit easier than reacting to them on a unconscious level.

With love, Lorraines

HI Simon,
Well the most important aspect of it is to remember that you are in charge of this process so listen to yourself, here is how it works for me though.

When I started to do the GI the first time I started manifesting fears like popcorn and I stopped doing the GI without dealing with the fears and they went away. The second go round I started doing the GI and again fears started popping up asap and again I stopped doing the GI and just meditated and breathed and again things settled down. The third time  I started the GI and sure enough everything hit fast forward and the fears started manifesting in amazing time and accuracy of issues and I finally got the correlation ( I know I don't see very clearly in the midst of fear, hahaha) and from then on it was on!!

For me it was very helpful to continue to do the GI as I was facing these issues I was manifesting as the process though intense ( for me) pushed me through the fear and onto the other side very quickly and combined with the Halo/Sharp deck broke down a lot of mental barriers and built up new strong archetypes  in it's place.

With love, Lorraines

That is interesting Simon,

I think for me that I never have to actually physically experience what I am afraid of because for me the fear is tied into past experiences where I felt fear, hurt, ect... and internalized it. So for me the process is going within and uncovering or remembering that experience then feeling those feelings and then remembering or re-seeing the truth of the situation with adult eyes now that I couldn't see with a child's eyes then. And then re-laying the truths I told myself then about myself and the world and laying down a new foundation with new truths that I have now.

It is hard for me to explain this so hopefully that makes sense.

Hi Z!
I just read your healing journal posts. I used to be afraid of flying until my job provided me with a 4 and half hour flight for educational reasons. I basically pulled my britches up and walked onto the plane! I felt like I didn't have many choices as being medicated on the flight didn't feel right, I'd rather be frightened and know the fear than mask it with a pill that may distort it and possibly make it worse the next time. Guess what? I love flying! Well, as long as the plane stays in the air like it's supposed to! The take off and landing reminded me of being on a child's amusement ride. I won't do roller coasters though, oh well. 

Oh! The dream! I'd like to offer an interpretation to the dream of love. Life can be funny, I repeatedly dream that I am married to one of those handsome popular actors, the same actor all the time and then I wake up. So not fair when I realize it was a dream!  I look at dreams like this, when we are having a dream, that's our reality, when we wake up, that's our reality. The last time I had a nightmare, I saw myself saying, Oh no, I'm not doing this dream, I'm going to count to three, snap my fingers and awaken from it. In the dream I counted to three, snapped my fingers and funny thing, my eyes opened while I laid in bed scratching my head wide awake! Yes, the interpretation....your present wife's soul is the woman in your dream.
Enjoy!
terese

Having listened to this weeks OUL module and reading the pre flight check from the Book of Magic, I just thought I'd pop a bit in here concerning my formative years, so I hopefully get a clearer idea of what I need to work on correcting.

What sort of abuse was I subjected to? (rhetorical) Well we've already worked out from earlier posts elsewhere that I have poor attachments due to my Mum not displaying love and affection very often or openly. She used to watch the children's TV hour with me and take me to the park and I can remember her pushing me on the swings.

Generally I have to work really hard to remember anything from my early childhood, mostly I remember playing with my friends round at their houses, but never remember much of my own house (well a flat it was actually) I remember a couple of things, but with little clarity and it is almost as if I am frightened to try to remember fully back to those days, although I can't really think of a reason why that should be the case.

There was one incident that is for some reason embarrassing to talk about (I suppose because I was told it was wrong, and I guess it was maybe ) but as it might be significant I will recount it here. I think I was about 5 or 6 years old and my friend Peter had come round to my flat for a sleepover. Anyway, we were playing about in my bedroom and somehow got the idea to examine each others naked bottoms and sexual parts, just out of curiosity really. We were caught doing this by, I think it was my mother though I really can't remember for sure. Whoever it was told us it was wrong anyway, and that we mustn't do it again.

It's difficult to pick out what was abuse in my early years because it is so hard for me to recall, though now there is a reason to do so moments are coming back, I'll pop them in here if they might relate to abuse.

The most traumatic time I can recall was at the public school that I was sent to at the age of 13. At one point I was seen by a couple of the other boys stealing some sweets out of another boys underbed drawer, they led me round to the wood shed behind the art room and beat seven shades of root excreted matter out of me (fracturing my nose in the process) and I'm pretty sure if one of them hadn't stopped the other I might not be here today. Upon going to see the school doctor and the deputy headmaster and explaining what had happened, I was allowed to finish my exams but asked to leave the school. My friends mother a while after the event said it was disgraceful and that the other boys should have been expelled not me and that my mum should have sued the school.

I am reminded of Pink Floyd's Welcome to the Machine http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=L5jRewnxSBY&feature=related
[edit] images on previous links weren't too pleasant, sorry if anyone clicked

I think these things are pretty well healed over and everyone involved I have forgiven, but I thought I'd mention them in case they have relevance.

Love and Light

Si